morning lights;

I don't know why I feel this way all the time. I can't even explain it to myself, let alone to others. When they ask, I am speechless and I just don't know what to say. In the end, what was never said is never heard and never known. What is the reason I'm like this? I don't even know. God, just why can't I be a better person? I don't want to be this way.

Sometimes, people strive so hard for the things they want. But in the end, no matter how hard they tried, it doesn't even work out. It makes us wonder, is it worth it? How hurt are we going to be if this doesn't happen? Will time wash away the pain? Or will it linger deep in the corners of our hearts only to linger there... forever?

Is the past any better than the present?
Is it my fault that things are this way?

I wish I knew.


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Yi Rong, I'm very sorry I couldn't show up for the outing today. But I hope you had a great time and happy belated birthday.

And also, to the person who's everything, happy birthday.