It is 01:36 in the morning now. I officially qualify to be a vampire. According to Stephanie Meyer's books anyway. :p
Told ya so. ;)Don't you feel like your schedules nowadays are way too tight for your liking? You have way too many things to be worrying about? Like you can't even spend the day watching tv or playing some silly computer game without you having your conscience nagging at you from the back of your head, telling you that you should be studying or doing whatever else work that you might have? Like you have got too much to deal on? That you're too young and this isn't what kids your age should be doing?
Yeah. I feel it too.
But then, just moments ago, I snapped and realised.
Oh my god, I'm not too young anymore. I am seventeen and this is in fact, exactly what I need to be worrying about. I'm not a kid anymore.
Ah, reality. Boy, does it hit hard. We're growing up, people. And it's pretty scary.
Have you ever experienced yourself..
1. realising how blurry your future is?
2. wanting something or someone so badly even though it was impossible to get?
3. thinking that some people are stay together forever but then suddenly right before your eyes, they separate just like that?
4. believing in forever?
5. being left by the person you love most?
6. loving someone so much, that everyone else after him/her isn't the same?
7. wondering what your purpose in life is? We study, we rest, we grow up, we study, we rest, we graduate, we work, we start a family, we work, we grow old, we die.
8. wondering what the hell SPM is for if rich kids can just get into college just like that?
9. wondering if what you say is going to affect the person you're saying it to? And how?
10. living in a fairytale and fearing for your life that it was going to end?
11. pondering if the things people say to you are actually true or said just for the sake of it?
12. thanking God for the friends you have and the way you know they'll always be there for you? :) And finally...
13. ..wondering how your moods can have stupid swings? [like mine now! =_=]
Ah well, crapping post. :)
Because I know you're always a part of me.
1 comments:
i think i experienced all thirteen. sigh.
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